Deep Down

I’ve been so hard passing this years. Starting by the shocked moment where I mad as fuck to everybody including God. I don’t know how to express my disappointment. I feel so alone and lonely. Though people around me kept giving me support through nice words or beautiful smile, it can’t help me escape from the loneliness physically and mentally. The moment where I feel like no one really care about me but my family. The moment of darkness where my brain full of questions about why and how.
During the time nothing that I could do more except praying to the One that I felt mad before. As the time passed by, my wound was healing by Him. Not something physically detected as illness that He healed nor something that shockingly made me depressed. But something more than it. It was my broken hearted, yass. My core thing.

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